"You're still thinking that i hate you now but you still don't know what i never say."
It has been so long, the past, the memories. But they are still so fresh in my mind, like everything happened just yesterday. I really missed him. I don't know what to do, because he has a new girlfriend now and i can't even talk to him as a friend. It's funny we are not even friends now.
To be honest, i don't need anything. I don't want him back, and my intention at first is for him to leave. And now, he is gone. I should be happy because i begged him for that, to move on. But this is just too sudden for me. I have waited for six months. Six months for an answer why he has never texted back. But all i get is a news saying that he got a new girl, who was also my once good friend in high school, how weird because they said he has chased her for a long period, long period... (i'm fooled)
All i want is a proper goodbye, a farewell. You know you can't leave like this, so irresponsible. The damage that you've caused, i can't heal. I cannot. I'm dying inside. He is the first man that i ever loved, for so long. And i guess i still love him now, but i can't.
I've never told him that i've loved him from the very start, when he walked into that classroom, i've loved him since then. He's all i ever wanted. But he left. Gone. Not even a goodbye.
I turned 21 three months ago. I thought i was going to receive a birthday wish from him. I am so wrong. I bet he forgot, my birthday. I remembered how it hurt, seeing you and her going to Penang, sleeping on the same bed, on my birthday. You know you don't have to do this. This is too cruel, for a girl you've loved for 8 years. Are you sure that this is love?
I really wish i can hate her, my goddamn best friend since 13. What a joke that she was the one that destroyed my 8 years friendship with him. After everything I have done for her, all she gave back was this. Maybe watching me sad makes her feel happy. I guess i can never forget what she has done. It is terrible.
It has been so long, the past, the memories. But they are still so fresh in my mind, like everything happened just yesterday. I really missed him. I don't know what to do, because he has a new girlfriend now and i can't even talk to him as a friend. It's funny we are not even friends now.
To be honest, i don't need anything. I don't want him back, and my intention at first is for him to leave. And now, he is gone. I should be happy because i begged him for that, to move on. But this is just too sudden for me. I have waited for six months. Six months for an answer why he has never texted back. But all i get is a news saying that he got a new girl, who was also my once good friend in high school, how weird because they said he has chased her for a long period, long period... (i'm fooled)
All i want is a proper goodbye, a farewell. You know you can't leave like this, so irresponsible. The damage that you've caused, i can't heal. I cannot. I'm dying inside. He is the first man that i ever loved, for so long. And i guess i still love him now, but i can't.
I've never told him that i've loved him from the very start, when he walked into that classroom, i've loved him since then. He's all i ever wanted. But he left. Gone. Not even a goodbye.
I turned 21 three months ago. I thought i was going to receive a birthday wish from him. I am so wrong. I bet he forgot, my birthday. I remembered how it hurt, seeing you and her going to Penang, sleeping on the same bed, on my birthday. You know you don't have to do this. This is too cruel, for a girl you've loved for 8 years. Are you sure that this is love?
I really wish i can hate her, my goddamn best friend since 13. What a joke that she was the one that destroyed my 8 years friendship with him. After everything I have done for her, all she gave back was this. Maybe watching me sad makes her feel happy. I guess i can never forget what she has done. It is terrible.
Comments
Post a Comment